#freereads – Adrift Ch 75 by J Alan Veerkamp #scifi #mmromance #lgbtfiction

Welcome to another free read Wednesday!

We’re back for the most recent addition to my new story, presented through the flash fiction group Wednesday Briefers.


Each week, the contributing members write a chapter/story with a maximum of 1000 words, trying to get the most out of the word limit. For me, it helps keep me writing when my schedule gets tight. Win/win!

(Okay, I cheated on this chapter and totally wrote a lot more than 1000 words. Enjoy)

Hodge and the crew have come to talk. About what?

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Chapter 75

Every muscle in Arad’s body continued to ache, so he kept his seat, arms resting on his knees and head propped up against the wall. He refused to show Hodge and the crew any more weakness. The buffer Roku provided between them bolstered his confidence and a bit of snark all at once.

“It’s your house, don’t wait on my account. But you might want to keep your distance. Roku’s been looking mighty murderous these days.”

Hodge crossed the threshold, hands still open, as if making a point to appear non-threatening. “How’re you feeling? That was a nasty jolt you took. Those devices don’t take well to being messed with.”

Ignoring the strain, Arad shrugged. “Don’t worry about me, I’m fabulous. Thanks for rushing in with the medical attention.”

“Thought about it, but the last guy who came in here got the shit kicked out of him.”

“So I hear.” Leaning way over for a better view around the wall of Roku, Arad raised his voice for everyone’s benefit. “How you holding up there, Pakko?”

Vosh growled. Yosei covered her mouth, smothering a snort. Bryce stood back silent, ever watching. Pakko gave Arad the finger. Straightening back up, Arad laughed in that low, mean-spirited way the corrupt police back home used to before stealing a vendor’s money then kicking over their fruit carts.

Looking around the room, Hodge’s gaze landed on the twisted wad of metal at his feet.

“You can have your tray back,” Arad said.

“I misread you. You didn’t strike me as this aggressive.” 

Usually, Arad’s sense of survival tactics didn’t include this much viciousness—normally, he’d vote against it at every opportunity—but he’d lost the will to be charitable. He wasn’t going quietly anymore. He deserved better. 

“What can I say? The Nightingale’s hospitality brings out the best in me.”

Blowing out a lungful, Hodge dropped his head, deliberately avoiding looking Arad and Roku in the eye. His mouth opened and closed several time, whatever words he had stalling under an expression and body language Arad could only link to… shame?

Vosh’s eyes narrowed in suspicion. “Why are the rest of us here?

Arad wondered that too. If they hadn’t come as a group, what did Hodge have to say that required an audience? It took an effort to appear nonchalant when his curiosity was so well primed. Thankfully, Hodge found the strength to speak.

“The Ansariland’s engines are initializing. She’ll be ready within a few hours.”

Roku’s voice held an unending tone of menace. “Congratulations. That should make for quite a payday.”

Hodge raised his head. “I expect you two to be on that ship.”

“Come again?” Arad asked.

The weight balanced over Roku’s feet lost a hint of that ready-to-strike agitation. Keeping the shock off Arad’s face was easy. He didn’t trust Hodge enough to believe this wasn’t a ploy to get them to behave. Surprise however, found itself painted on the face and posture of every Nightingale crew member as well as a fair amount of confusion.

Not surprising, was Vosh breaking the silence as he stepped forward into the doorway. “You’re letting them go?” His ursine shoulders swelled, but Hodge appeared unaffected by the display.


“What about the money? We could use that.”

Hodge’s face darkened. “I know, and if I could see a way to cut them loose and get paid, I would.”

Pakko snorted. “Good luck with that.”

“Hey. None of us are angels and we’ve all done a lot of shady crap lately, but no one’s ever died because of it.”

“That you know of.”

A ragged sigh deflated Hodge. “Maybe. But I know it now, and I can’t live with that. You still wake up screaming from the shit you did on your last tour behind enemy lines, so I’m not sure you can either.”

Right there, Arad could see the crack in Hodge’s veneer, the first signs of truth seeping through. The chances he and Roku would walk out of this cell were growing, but not guaranteed. Too much had happened to simply take him at his word, and Arad frankly was still pissed off. Pressing a knife into Hodge’s guilt wounds came to Arad without a second thought.

“A lot harder to sell the product when you meet it face to face?”

Hodge winced. “A little something like that. I’d like to think that someday when I meet my wife and daughter on the other side, they’ll be able to look me in the eye.”

A sobering thought. It had been years since Arad had entertained the idea of facing his family again after casting him out. Hodge’s family were dead rather than he being dead to them, as in Arad’s case. Arad supposed he couldn’t understand the wish, but questioned whether Hodge would end up with his lost family in heaven.

Before he said something counterproductive, Arad changed the subject. “Forgive me if I’m feeling a bit skeptical, but what’s the plan here?”

“Once you’re on board and ready to leave, we’ll send you the command keycodes to unlock Roku’s restraints. Then you go on your way, and we never cross paths again.”

“So far I like the plan. Why don’t you just let him free now?”

Hodge’s gaze shifted squarely on Roku. “I don’t want you killing us all in our sleep.”

While his stance may have retreated from pouncing, Roku managed to keep his presence commanding and unforgettable despite the shackles. His throaty chuckle chilled. “The idea has merit.”

Everyone’s reactions were at various levels of visiblity, but all of them unsettled, even Vosh.

“What about the other DemiShou?” Arad asked. He wasn’t leaving without them, but they weren’t in a position to fight to force the crew’s hands given the current situation.

“Take them with you. I’m canceling the deal.”

Vosh’s jaw nearly hit the floor. “Are you kidding? ApexCorp won’t let us breach contract.”

“The contract is illegal, even by their own standards. Besides, I’ve gathered enough evidence to make them keep their distance.”

“They have lots of contacts. We’ll be looking over our shoulders in every port.”

Hodge turned his full attention on Vosh, standing inches away. “If you want to stay on this ship, it’s not up for debate.”

“You can’t do this.”

“Stop being an asshole,” Hodge barked. “The only reason you don’t like Roku is because you had a dick measuring contest in the ring and came up short. There is always someone out there bigger and badder than you. Have a little honor about losing in a fair fight. You should be better than that. It’s why I hired you in the first place, because I can trust you to watch my six.”

Vosh flinched at Hodge’s assessment. The core of his animosity towards Roku was prime toxic alpha male crap that couldn’t be easily bred out of thousands of generations no matter how hard some might have tried. Arad had seen it far too may times, the men whose entire egos were built on being stronger than the rest around them. A waste of time when a man with a bigger gun comes along.

“I did some digging and snatched a copy of ApexCorp’s customer list. The people on it…” Gritting his teeth, Hodge shook his head. “There’s no way we’ll walk away from this, once this deal is done. Contract terms or not, the law will override them all. We’ll be accessories to murder and they have the clout to pin that on us. Don’t think they won’t.”

Arad wasn’t impressed, but kept his mouth shut. Guilt might have spurred Hodge’s change of heart, but the rationale for bringing the rest in line was all about saving their collective butts. Pointing that out at this stage wouldn’t do him any favors. He needed to sit back and let this play out, praying it ended with he and Roku safely back on board the Ansariland. It was the only option he had.

“What’ll we do?”

“What we should have done from the start. Not do the job. We have our own contacts. We can barter our safety with the information I have. There’s more than just the list archived. A lot more. If they leave us be, we stay quiet and go about our business, in another sector if need be.”

“You’d better be right—ow!” Vosh turned to Pakko. “Did you pinch me?”


Frustration and impatience in his voice made Hodge’s volume rise. “Dammit, Pakko. Can you keep it in your pants for five minutes? This is important!”

Looking positively affronted. Pakko clamped his mouth tight, crossed his arms over his chest, and faced away.

Vosh and Hodge locked eyes. A long, tense minute dragged out as the consummate leader held his ground under the stare of the ego driven DemiShou. A hint of challenge tainted the air which no one interrupted. Eventually, Vosh exhaled, his shoulders relaxing.

“Do you really think we can do this?”

Clapping a hand on Vosh’s arm, Hodge nodded. “We’ll figure it out. I won’t let us all down.”

“I never liked working for ApexCorp anyways.” Vosh wavered on his feet.

Hodge’s eyes narrowed. “Are you feeling alright?”

“Not really. Something’s wrong…”

Vosh stumbled two steps forward and collapsed hard, taking Hodge with him to the floor. Panic flashed across Pakko’s face as Vosh began to groan only to have any noises turn to forced grunts as his eyes rolled back in his head and his entire body began to seize.

Pakko dove to his knees. “Vosh!” Over and over he reached out, hands coming up short, as if afraid to touch Vosh and make matters worse.

Swearing, Hodge tried to pry himself out from under the massive bear as the fits increased.

Something very wrong hovered in the room, thickening the air enough Arad couldn’t bring himself to take advantage and run out the door. 

Roku took a careful step backwards, crowding Arad as he growled. “Something smells wrong.”

Vosh’s arm flailed out and caught Hodge in the face. “Shit! Bryce! Help us here!”

The doctor came into the room, pulling a hypodermic gun from her pocket. Calmly, she stepped over Vosh, keeping a careful eye on his convulsions. Frothing at the mouth, the bear sounded like he was drowning.

Giving up trying to free himself, Hodge’s cries became more harried. “Dammit, Bryce! Do something!”

“I am,” she said in her insufferably stoic tone, holding the device over Vosh as his movements slowed. “I’m waiting for him to die.”


Bryce reached down near Vosh and picked up an object: the dropped control to Roku’s collar. She raised it and pressed the button. Sparks brightened the room for a good thirty seconds. Roku’s deafening roar faded, and he fell, slamming into the bed’s edge and slumping over Arad. Breathing shallow and unmoving, his solid weight held Arad down. 

“Bryce! What the fuck are doing?” Hodge shouted.

Pakko lunged at her and she snapped a knee into his face, sending him sprawling. The audible crunch had been sharp over the noise.

Bryce side-eyed Hodge while scanning the cell. “ApexCorp was afraid you’d bail on the project. So they made me a counteroffer.”

“You bitch!”

“I’m afraid your commission has been revoked.” Over her shoulder, she called out into the hallway. “Knight takes Bishop.”

Arad’s attempt to climb out from under Roku stalled as a man-shaped section of the corridor…moved. It shifted—walked—forward, and shoved Yosei with a yelp into the room next to Pakko. The figure’s surface rippled, like a million miniature sequins rolling and shivering, changing color until each individual dot returned to a range of solid tones leaving a muscular, scaled DemiShou standing before them all. Arad couldn’t do more than whisper his name into the chaos.


With uncaring eyes, the lizard strode across Vosh’s twitching body and grabbed Hodge by the hair and raked his claws across Hodge’s throat with the other. Blood splashed the walls, ending Hodge’s frantic struggles with a wet choke. Yosei clasped both hands over her mouth and shrieked at full volume, scuttling backwards, deeper into the corner. Pakko did the same, his voice lost in horror.

Shichi released Hodge’s and turned his steely attention on Pakko. Bryce laid a gentle hand on Shichi’s shoulder, stroking him tenderly. “No. We need the techs. For now.”

A faint rush of air escaped Vosh and he stopped moving. Bryce kneeled and pressed a finger to his neck and scanned the data displaying on her small wrist monitor. “A touch slower than I expected, but still effective.”

Arad hissed and shook Roku, whose dead weight pinned him down. “Roku, wake up. Wake up!”

Standing up, Bryce ignored Arad, letting her hand drift up Shichi’s chest and neck, across his hairless skull. The multicolored scales shimmered in shades of dangerous reds and orange, bleeding into less heated shades of yellow and green as he leaned into the touch, sniffing along her wrist and forearm, all without losing sight of everyone else. His body relaxed, but the remnants of Hodge’s throat dripping off his claws made it clear he would kill anyone in the room if Bryce asked.

“ApexCorp suspected Hodge would breach their trust and were kind enough to give me Shichi’s verbal command codes so I could secure the ship. He was designed to be a private mercenary to his client.”

“I can’t believe you’re touching him.” The amount of contact she’d had with Shichi flew in the face of everything he’d seen and understood about her. Not just him, but everyone else as well.

“DemiShou don’t spread random disease like standard humans. They’re superior in every way.”

“You woke him?”

She shrugged. “His processing was complete. Shichi just needed someone to give him direction, isn’t that right, darling? Binding him to me wasn’t a hardship.”

“How did you get in my cargo bay?”

Bryce nudged at Hodge’s pale corpse with the toe of her boot, satisfied with the lack of reaction. “I copied your command access off Yosei’s pad days ago.”

Arad gasped as he watched how Shichi gravitated towards Bryce, following her every motion. “He’s imprinted on you.”

Bryce’s sly smile chilled Arad as she leered over Shichi’s naked body, pausing at the thick organ swaying between his legs. “Like I said, it wasn’t a hardship.”

What was that noise, Arad thought, that pounding, growing louder by the second, reverberating through Arad’s chest and head, suffocating all reason? No one’s heartbeat should have such power. Arad hadn’t known this level of terror had never spiraled under Arad’s ability to decipher a way out in all the messed up circumstances of his life. He was so screwed. They were so screwed. Blinking back tears, Arad shook Roku again. He didn’t respond.

They might actually die here. Today. He thought they’d have more time.

“Ship, identify the Nightingale’s commanding officer,” Bryce said to the ceiling.

A synthetic male voice replied. “Protocols following the cessation of Captain Hodge’s life signs have auto-promoted Dr. Bryce Southerland to rank of captain.”

Pocketing the hypodermic gun in her lab coat, Bryce couldn’t look more pleased with herself. “Perfect. Now, Hodge was correct about one thing. We need to talk. You and I need to have a serious conversation about the future of the DemiShou.” See nodded in Arad’s direction to Shichi. “Bring him.”

Without hesitation, Shichi stalked his way. Arad shouted and shoved at Roku in a last ditch effort to wake him, but he didn’t react, barely making a sound when Shichi tossed the tiger’s unconscious body aside. One look into Shichi’s cold stare and panic flooded Arad. 

Run, run run! 

He scrambled to escape, too get out of reach in this tiny, tiny space. Diving onto one bed, he scramble-crawled to get around the killer Demi, only to scream out in pain as Shichi’s bloody hand caught a fistful of his hair. Arad grabbed at Shichi’s wrist, trying to prevent his scalp from being torn off in chunks as he was hauled outside.

Let go of me! Roku! Wake up! Roku!

He kicked at his captors as best he could, being kept out of Bryce’s reach as she locked the cell door with everyone else inside. He never stopped fighting for all the good it did as they pulled him down the hallway and away from Roku.

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#freereads – Adrift Ch 74 by J Alan Veerkamp #scifi #mmromance #lgbtfiction

Welcome to another free read Wednesday!

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Each week, the contributing members write a chapter/story with a maximum of 1000 words, trying to get the most out of the word limit. For me, it helps keep me writing when my schedule gets tight. Win/win!

Arad just got shocked off Roku’s restraint collar. Yikes!

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Chapter 74

“Arad. Can you hear me?”

Phosphorescent fireflies danced as the dark and blurry world came back into view. All Arad could see was the ceiling and a distressed DemiShou hovering over him.

“Arad. Are you all right?”

His whole body twitched and ached, like every muscle had contracted and refused to release. Both hands were numb, but life seeped back into them replaced by a hot sensation at his fingertips, bright red from instant burns. By sheer luck, he’d taken a shock intended to take down a strong DemiShou and lived. And yes, it hurt, much like the endless depths of concern in Roku’s eyes. 

Arad coughed to ease his tight chest. “Yeah. Only my pride’s wounded.”

Roku didn’t appear convinced.

The collar still sat fixed around Roku’s neck. Arad reached up for it, but Roku jerked backwards. “Don’t. I think it’s still active. I can feel an electric hum through the device.” The access panel sat slightly ajar but pinprick lights inside told him Roku was probably right. If the collar contained tampering countermeasures, the shackles could have the same features. The Nightingale crew were well prepared.

“I’m sorry, Roku.”

“About what?”

“I thought I could free you, and we’d have a chance to escape.”

“You have nothing to be sorry for. No part of this is your fault.”

Kicking his doubts would take a lot of work. Arad had spent years having been told being a slug was his own fault, a lack of effort on his part. He knew better, but self-loathing could be a harsh companion. The best strategy was to replay Roku’s faith in him over and over, because the man had never lied to him before and probably never would.

Arad grunted at the effort to stand, his flesh scraped as raw as his soul, leaving behind aching waves of exhaustion. The energy required to fuel his anger lacked the potency to draw a real reaction out of Arad. A cold numbness seeped into him, drowning any emotion short of apathy. There wasn’t much else to be done.

Sleeping away the daylight until his time came held a fair amount of appeal. He scanned the cell’s attached beds, debating on the most comfortable, and came across the trays of uneaten food. Arad sighed, knowing he couldn’t rest yet.

“Come on. If I’ve learned nothing else over the years, you don’t waste good food.” Because some days you didn’t know where the next meal would come from. 

He sat on the bed and arranged the trays for ease. Neither of them had eaten since they’d be captured. Thankfully, they provided one tray with a larger than human amount. Roku would need his strength, for whatever came next. Arad motioned Roku over and the tiger kneeled in front of him. Both of his arms were stuck in the awkward position from being fastened behind him. It had to ache after so much time, yet he didn’t complain, didn’t say more.

The Nightingale crew had wisely not given them any utensils that could be used again them. Growing up, Arad had been taught knives and guns were the providence of criminals and the insecure. It left him uncomfortable with hand weapons, even in defense, but this situation left him feeling the urge to shank one or more of his captors.

Breaking off a piece of the ration bar, Arad fed it to Roku, mindful not to touch the collar. He wasn’t about to make him eat like a pet, face first in his dish. Roku accepted graciously, one piece at a time, taking care not to harm Arad’s stinging fingers. He took drinks from the cup held by shaky hands without complaint other than insisting Arad eat too, whether he had an appetite or not.

He’d never done this before, shared this special intimacy with another man. None of his clients back in Grey District made the time or had the interest for such role play except maybe Davis, but he’d been too busy spending their transactions under the influence of Syn to be creative.

Under other circumstances, this would have been fun. A lover’s game both of them could enjoy, but Hodge and his seedy gang had ruined it for what few hours, days, weeks they had left.

Once both trays sat empty, Arad stood to place them near the exit, out of their way. Without a word or a shout, he swung the metal trays against the door. Over and over, he slammed metal against metal until both trays were a mangled, useless mess. They dropped to the floor with a dull clang. Arad tipped his head upward and shined his middle finger to the ceiling as he pointed to the wad of ruined, cheap steel.

“This is trash. I am not. Learn the difference, you pieces of shit!”

Hopefully, the entire crew watched, not just Bryce.

With slow resignation, Arad waked back and slumped into a seat against the wall opposite the door. His body felt marginally better, but he was still wrecked. Roku took a spot next to him, leaning in close, offering comfort while Arad quietly seethed. Before this was said and done, someone was going to die. Yes, by all accounts Arad was the most likely, but he wasn’t convinced it would be a solitary experience.

He couldn’t be sure how much time passed. Minutes could stretch into hours and vice versa with nothing to occupy himself other than his rage and fears. Roku’s ears twitched and his sudden movement startled Arad. He rose to his feet with a feral growl, shifting to a position between Arad and the door as the cell opened with the Nightingale crew standing in the hall. Hodge, Vosh, Pakko, Yosei, and even Bryce, none of which made him feel at ease. Roku’s warning grew in volume even as his legs tensed and his feet braced.

Hodge raised both hands, palms out and empty. “We didn’t come here to fight. We need to talk.”

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#freereads – Adrift Ch 73 by J Alan Veerkamp #scifi #mmromance #freereads #lgbtfiction

Welcome to another free read Wednesday!

We’re back for the most recent addition to my new story, presented through the flash fiction group Wednesday Briefers.


Each week, the contributing members write a chapter/story with a maximum of 1000 words, trying to get the most out of the word limit. For me, it helps keep me writing when my schedule gets tight. Win/win!

Tensions run high in the Nightingale’s brig.

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Chapter 73

Less than a minute later, Vosh made a show of the collar’s remote as he entered the open cell, brandishing it like some ancient ward against evil. Arad placed a hand on Roku’s shoulder. He could feel the muscles wound and tense, ready for action under his touch. A warning yowl made Arad shiver. Roku had rolled to a crouch, poised on a hair trigger to take another shot at Vosh, restrained or not.

“Don’t. Please,” Arad whispered. The tension remained, but Roku eased back a bit. Now was not the time.

One eye on them, Vosh crouched down to check Pakko.

“You oughta zap him.” Whiny and dazed, yet coherent, Pakko would be fine. Arad had seen worse over the years.

Vosh touched and prodded for injuries. “Shut up. You should’ve waited for me to be ready. Any of us would’ve done the same.”

“You bet against me.”

With gentle care, Vosh lifted Pakko easily, cradling him in his arms like a child. “I bet you wouldn’t be dumb enough to go in alone.”

“Nope. I’m dumb enough, for sure.” Pakko didn’t raise his head, falling asleep on Vosh’s shoulder.

Arad wanted to puke watching Vosh treat Pakko like something precious while imprisoning and selling other people without seeming to care. It was tempting to sic Roku on them all. With his skills, he could probably beat Vosh with his arms tied behind his back.

Apparently his thoughts broadcast over his face, because Vosh gave him the nastiest sneer as he settled Pakko. “Stay right fucking there.”

“Don’t worry. Roku’s stuck in here. I’m not leaving him behind.” Arad had yet to stop touching Roku, silently asking him to hold back and to ground himself. Perhaps the imprint included something psychic, because Roku didn’t move, only staring daggers at Vosh.

“I don’t want anymore trouble out of you, slug.”

Arad removed his hand from Roku. He stepped forward, head cocked, reading Vosh’s audacity and outright stupidity. “I may be a slug, but where I come from, you wouldn’t rank any higher as a Demi. We’d both by on the job lines, no matter who you’re sleeping with.”

“I’m not DemiShou.”

A laugh filled with outrage and disbelief erupted out of Arad. “Why? Because you were drafted? Roku didn’t ask for it. ApexCorp waited for him to be gunned down and used some messed up legal loophole to put him through the program. He sure wasn’t a volunteer. It doesn’t make him any less a DemiShou, and he shouldn’t have to suffer for it because you don’t like your reflection.”

Vosh hedged, glancing between Pakko and Arad, as if he might dump the one to maul the other. The old adage about not poking bears came to mind. He suspected the man in Vosh’s arms was the only reason he was still standing, so Arad eased back his hostility.

“I get it, Vosh. Corporations like ApexCorp keep a stranglehold on their employees. Do the job, get paid, everything turns out fine, right?”

“You don’t quit from these places. They retire you.” Vosh looked down at Pakko. “And everyone you know or love.”

Honestly, Arad tired of hearing how the entire crew had elevated self-preservation into a reasonable excuse for acting like dicks. He understood how blackmail turned good men bad, but seriously…they all needed to grow spines. Or at least eat a healthy dose of reality.

“What happens when one of ApexCorp’s customers decides they want a bear slave? Or they realize there’s more profit in using DemiShou already on the payroll rather than making new ones if you fit the description? Do you think you saying, ‘I’m not a Demi’ will matter to them? If they’ll put you down for not doing a job, don’t think for a second they’ll protect you over increasing their sales bonuses.”

Vosh glared at Arad, but kept his mouth shut as he strode out carrying Pakko. Yosei stood in the hall, gave Arad a small smirk and nod, then closed and locked the cell door.

“I guess he didn’t like the truth,” Roku said.

“No, I don’t think he did.”

Taking digs at the crew was Arad’s only weapon. Each attack, however, returned less and less satisfaction as time passed. He couldn’t count on them leaving him and Roku alone for what he had left. The deadline, whenever it might be, was looming. Roku was hobbled and he wasn’t strong enough to fight. Not against this group. 

Arad needed to even his odds.

Spinning, he assessed the cell in closer detail. Everything was welded to the wall or bolted down. Except the food trays. Arad snatched one of the hard plastic cups, dumped it out, and laid it on the floor.

“What are you doing? “ Roku asked.

Since Bryce might be watching, he didn’t answer. He stomped the cup until it broke into several shards. One of the sharper ones might be sufficient. Impatient, he spun and grabbed Roku by the collar, dragging him close. Roku didn’t resist. Arad didn’t miss his implicit trust. He counted on it.

He searched over the collar’s surface, looking for access seams. They were tight, but on close inspection, they were there. Two matching lines, each in front and back had to be the hinge and locks. What he wanted was a different port. The locks didn’t matter unless the device’s power could be severed. Finding a subtle panel along the side, he slid the shard’s point inside the groove, looking for a little give.

“I’m a tech. A good tech. I can do this.”

Just slender enough, the shard lifted the panel a hair, giving him a chance to get under it. He worked the edge until he found the catch. The panel released and he carefully swung it out of the way, showing the hardware inside.

Sparks shot out of the collar. Arad screamed as the violent quake ripped through his whole body, and the shock slammed him backwards against the wall.

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#freereads – Adrift Ch 72 by J Alan Veerkamp #scifi #mmromance #freereads #lgbtfiction

Welcome to another free read Wednesday!

Happy New Year!

Time to start off 2020 with a fresh new chapter!

We’re back for the most recent addition to my new story, presented through the flash fiction group Wednesday Briefers.

Each week, the contributing members write a chapter/story with a maximum of 1000 words, trying to get the most out of the word limit. For me, it helps keep me writing when my schedule gets tight. Win/win!

Roku and Arad are trapped in the Nightingale’s brig. Waiting…

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Chapter 72

Hours later, the lights returned to full brightness, bathing the cell in artificial light. Still pressed into Roku’s warmth, Arad woke from his troubled sleep, shielding his eyes from the glare. The tiger continued to stand guard, his sharp gaze fixated on the door. Something passed in front of the window, the lock chimed, and the door hissed open.

Pakko edged in, a tray in each hand, a careful eye on Arad and Roku. He set the trays on the bed opposite, and stepped back keeping his distance.

Arad climbed out of bed, reading Pakko’s tension. Roku didn’t move. The trays were loaded with food, one carrying DemiShou sized portions. The rations looked normal enough, undoctored at first glance and smell.

“I’m surprised you’d bother to feed us.”

“We’re not monsters.”

“Says you. You have to keep Roku healthy.” Arad waved a hand at the food trays. “Why waste good food on me? Is this my last meal?”

“It’s not going to be like that.”

Arad scoffed. “Keep telling yourself that. If you doubt it, talk to your employer.”

“Hodge would never—”

“I’m not talking about Hodge.”

A tiny flinch and Pakko’s face darkened in disquiet. He’d yet to stop twitching and his discomfort grew. Every reaction revealed Pakko understood Arad’s fate, and his denial was fracturing.

“ApexCorp owned the transport vessel Hodge’s family died in. They settled the wrongful death charges with him for the Nightingale. He leveraged work from them in the process because he’d lost everything in the accident.”

Arad crossed his arms over his chest and rolled his eyes at Pakko. His clients often tried to clear their consciences by spilling their secrets since he had no power to share them, and the more he appeared to disbelieve, the more they said to prove him wrong. Remorse made men predictable and Pakko was not unique.

“It costs a lot to keep a ship like this running. They sucked him in. Now it’s too late to walk away. Sometimes I think they conned him to recoup their losses from the accident settlement.”

Arad almost laughed. “So Hodge is the victim. Got it. Vosh now, I can’t believe he’s involved. Selling his own people into slavery.”

“Vosh never wanted to be DemiShou. His commanding officer ordered him up as part of the last batch processed. He doesn’t see himself as Demi.”

“But he does seem to have a problem when he’s beaten by one.”

“That’s not what happened.”

“I guess you and I were watching different matches. I’m screwed because he’s a self-hating Demi who enjoyed being dominated a little too much.”

“That’s not fair.”

“No. It’s not really fair, is it?”

Roku stayed silent as Arad continued to dig verbal needles under Pakko’s fingernails. He’d been called too clever for his own good by more than one person in Grey District. With the right prodding, any guilty person would confess for a chance at absolution. The dodgy preacher taught him that. He just hadn’t needed to be so cruel about it in the past. 

Well, no one ever accused him of being unadaptable.

“So what’s your excuse for selling out your friends? Because I find it hard to think you’ve been faking it these past few days.”

Lines creased Pakko’s face, twisting his beard into an unappealing frown. “I wasn’t…You don’t understand.”

“Enlighten me.”

“It wasn’t supposed to be like this. We were only supposed to pick up and transport product. None of them were supposed to be awake.”

“And now you have to see them as living, breathing people.”

“We know too much. It doesn’t matter what we want. Corporations like ApexCorp won’t let us breach contract. We’re fucked.”

“No, you just have to feel bad and watch the deposit fill your bank accounts. We’re the ones everything is actually happening to.”

Brow tight, Pakko shook his head. “It’s not gonna be that bad—”

“Stop pretending you don’t know what’s going to happen!” Arad snarled, his voice booming in the confined space. “Stop pretending they aren’t going to break my connection to Roku! Stop pretending the company won’t murder me to do it!”

“They…they won’t do that…”

“Yes they will, and make someone filthy rich in the process, even if it’s not you! Stop pretending you’re okay with all of this!”

“I… I…” Scrubbing a hand over his face, Pakko ducked his head and turned away, guilt radiating from him in toxic waves. “I…I’m sorry.”

Arms still shackled, Roku pounced off the bed, landing without a sound behind Pakko before snapping his leg out and sweeping Pakko’s feet out from under him. Pakko had barely hit the deck before Roku placed a brutal kick to his midsection and vaulted for the door, which had stayed open since Pakko entered.

“Follow me,” Roku growled over his shoulder.

Roku lunged for the exit only to jerk backwards as his collar sparked to life. He collapsed to the floor, grunting as he landed on his bound arms and rolled over. Arad flew to his side, ignoring Pakko’s pained moans in the corner.

“Roku, are you all right?” Arad ghosted his hands over Roku’s body, afraid to touch him and get caught in the shock powerful enough to subdue the tiger. He breathed a sigh of relief as Roku nodded, gasping air between his teeth. No fresh scent of burned fur. The charge had been short compared to Vosh’s earlier treatment. A sound in the hall caught Arad’s attention. 

Back against the wall, Yosei sat, compad in hand. She watched stoically from the corridor, her usual frantic mirth subdued.

“Sorry, dude. The sensor grid’s configured across the doorway. I was really hoping you wouldn’t test it, but he’ll get zapped if he tries to cross the threshold. You’d better get comfortable.” She tapped her pad’s screen. “Vosh, looks like you’re gonna have to come down here and get Pakko. I told you what would happen if you sent him in alone. You owe me twenty credits.”

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#freereads – Adrift Ch 71 by J Alan Veerkamp #scifi #mmromance #freereads #lgbtfiction

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Christmas Edition!

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Since this week’s chapter has landed on Christmas Day, I’ve decided to give a special gift to my readers. I can’t really give out a holiday themed episode given our heroes current predicament, but I can break the rules and give out an extra long chapter as my way of saying thank you for sticking with me for 71 weeks!

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Chapter 71

Arad sat on the hard floor petting Roku’s head, praying for no more nightmares beyond the one they were living in. A prickling numbness grew in his left leg, but he ignored it to keep from disturbing his unconscious partner. The shallow yet steady rise and fall of Roku’s chest was the only thing holding Arad’s growing anxiety at bay as he felt around for injuries. A small, curious circle of scorched fur similar to one’s lining the shock collar marred Roku’s back, the only new evidence he could find. At least an hour passed before the tiger stirred.

Roku tried to move his arms, but the shackles impeded him. Every muscle from shoulder to forearm flexed, and he began to thrash and growl, forcing Arad to climb out from under him. A difficult feat with one near dead leg.

“Stop. Roku, stop.” Grimacing through pins and needles, Arad gripped Roku’s head and spoke firmly, trying not to startle him more than necessary. “Roku, wake up. Don’t struggle so hard. You’re handcuffed, and they’re too sturdy. Hodge was prepared for DemiShou. You’ll only hurt yourself.”

Roku rolled to his knees, stretching his head to look at his arms behind him as much as the collar allowed.   His nostrils flared as he tugged, testing the metal restraints. With a final yowl and jerk, he gave in, accepting the situation. Eyes and body coiled tight, he looked ready to murder until his lethal gaze crossed Arad. Concern softened his expression, even in the cell’s minimal light.

“Are you injured?” Roku’s voice was filled with gravel.

“No. Are you all right?”

Ears twitching, Roku scanned the room, taking in every detail. “I’ll be fine. Where are we?”

“The Nightingale jail. Brig. Whatever.”

“They imprisoned us?”

Images of Arad seizing under the collar’s power hadn’t stopped filling his thoughts. He didn’t know whether to nod or shrug, so he did both as he averted his eyes. “I surrendered. I was afraid Vosh was going to tase you to death. I didn’t have a choice.” Inhaled air hissed through his gritted teeth. “I’m sorry.”

Roku crawled forward, rubbing his snout gently along Arad’s neck and head. “Don’t apologize. I’m no use to either of us as a corpse.”

Leaning forward, Arad gripped Roku’s head and neck, relishing the fur between his fingers, but making sure to avoid the damned metal around Roku’s neck. He’d held together so well during Hodge’s visit, thrown all the viciousness in the captain’s face, but it hid the cracks in his soul. The ones leaving splinters of despair all over his life. He clung to Roku for all he was worth, because it was all he had.

“After I left the workshop, what happened to you? Do you remember?”

“Bryce messaged over the com and they shocked me from behind. Most likely Pakko.” 

The circular burn on Roku’s back. If Arad had the chance, he’d airlock Pakko and Vosh both without a second thought. Arad leaned back, staring into Roku’s eyes. “Vosh shouldn’t have been able to take you otherwise. Bryce’s message was probably a signal. She sees and hears all.”

Roku nodded. His cautious nature understanding what was said and unsaid. With them in the brig, Bryce was most likely spying on their every move. Common knowledge however, was a safe topic between them.

“It was a coward’s move, but effective. I misjudged the situation.”


“You were gone longer than I expected. I was getting anxious and let my guard down.”

“I stumbled across Hodge taking a call from a lawyer from ApexCorp.”

“ApexCorp? Who are they?”

The name sounded familiar, but Arad hadn’t walked on that side of life in a long time to know for sure. Street slugs didn’t interact with business types. “Some multi-planet corporation doing illegal things. Or at least a corrupt division.”

“Hodge is intelligent, but isn’t bred well to run in those circles. What business would he have with them?”

“Someone has to do the dirty work. The Nightingale is a step in a high-end custom DemiShou trafficking ring. Special order for wealthy clients.”

“And I’m one of the special orders.” Roku snarled derisively.

Arad frowned. “It looks like Torrins and the original crew were bringing you and the others to Hodge, who delivers them to the customers. Only I took the weird fold jump and landed in the wrong place. They’ve been looking for you guys ever since.”

“What else did you overhear? I need to know everything.”

Distaste creased Arad’s brow. He wished he’d never overheard Hodge and the Snotty man. “They talked about you. Who you were from before. They didn’t use your name, but they said you were special forces military. You were killed in a food riot because you wouldn’t shoot innocent people. Your contract gave them power to use you for the… program.”

“Just like some of my nightmares.”

“Or memories seeping through. It sounds like all of you were reclaims from military post mortem clauses. Some loophole that gives them authority.”

Roku nodded sadly. “That confirms what I’d already guessed. Did they say more about what happened to me?”

Arad hedged. Rolling back, he sat on the floor creating some space between them. The days of simple existence they shared when they had no access to the truth had a certain charm to them. Roku deserved the knowledge, but it could harm him, and Arad had vowed to protect the DemiShou, didn’t he?

Roku’s eyes pleaded, reading Arad’s indecision. It might hurt Roku to know more, but wouldn’t it be cruel to withhold the information from the man missing his life and memories? He wasn’t a child to coddle to shield.

With a shudder, Arad took a shaky breath. “The lawyer said you’re designed to seek a mate when you wake up. To bond you to your buyer. But it appears there’s a problem. You’re already imprinted on me.”

“I don’t see that as a problem. What does that mean for you?”

Arad wrapped his arms around himself as if it might prevent him from shrinking into something insignificant. “I think you know. They only need me to keep you in line. If I’m gone, you’ll eventually imprint on another dude.”

Even with his arms securely behind his back, Roku’s upper body straightened and swelled as his growl returned. “Never.”

“It sounds like it’ll happen whether you want it or not.” Without moving his arms, Arad scrubbed his face on his sleeve to smother a sniffle. He wasn’t going to cry. He wasn’t. “I have an expiration date.”

Cast out and replaced by a greedy family, surviving workhouse disasters, pneumonia, and predatory ship captains, and this was how Arad’s story would end. Discarded like rubbish after falling into a clandestine program he wasn’t on the social heirarchy to know about.

“I won’t let them touch you.”

Even bound and shackled, Roku’s chivalry knew no obstacle, branding him as Arad’s personal shining knight. Only, in this fairy tale the villains would win because they had the money and resources, not because good would triumph.

“You may not have a choice.”

“There’s always a choice.” The determination of earnestness in Roku was boundless. Too bad Arad knew better.

A sad, sarcastic laugh, completely devoid of humor spilled out of Arad. “Not really. Neither of us got a choice in this.”

“What’s that supposed to mean?” 

Arad cursed himself internally and waved it off. “Never mind. It doesn’t matter.”

“No. You brought it up. That means it’s important. Arad, tell me.”

Hopelessness hadn’t feasted on his heart so powerfully since he stood before his parents and watched an impostor take his place. Its gaping maw made his head ache under the weight of his shortened survival. He didn’t want to say a word, but the growing misery threatened to explode. Maybe letting out a little bit would ease the pressure and ease his conscience since he wouldn’t be able to fulfill his promise to Roku, Shichi, and Hachi in the end.

“He said that once you… imprint on someone, your body changes somehow. Bodily fluids become like Syn that only affects that person.”

“I don’t understand.”

Arad crushed his eyes closed to hold the first tears back. He swore he wouldn’t cry, but all this… it was too much. Too much anger at his parents, Sketch, corporate schemes, Torrins, Hodge and the entire Nightingale crew slipped in under his well constructed defenses. It was all too much. Survival had been the only skill he could count on, and now it was taken from him, and the razored edges it left behind blinded him in anger. When his eyes snapped open, he no longer cared if Bryce still listened. Shrill rage tore at his throat as he rolled forward and pounded his weak, human fists on Roku’s chest. 

“It means I get addicted to sex with you. Like when I was high on Syn the day you woke up. I’ve seen what happens when people get corrupted on that stuff. It’s not pretty. If it’s anything like Syn on the streets, it starts out small, but the more you have, the more you crave, until it’s all you live for. You and I are linked whether we want it or not. Everything about us together has been manufactured.” Arad’s breath stuttered. “None of it’s real.”

Unable to keep watching the sight of Roku blurring in front of him, he dropped his ineffectual arms and faced the floor.

Air gusted through Roku’s nose in hostile rushes until his broad chest became a bellows strong enough to stoke a smelting plant. A dangerous growl built in his throat. Arad ducked as Roku’s furious roar echoed off the walls, and he questioned his safety when Roku knocked him to the floor with a rough shoulder and straddled him, pinning him to the floor. Hunched over and teeth barred, the next roar blew back Arad’s hair, mere inches from his face.

“You don’t get to sat that! It’s not true!” Fury and sadness twisted Roku’s features in a way Arad had never seen, peeling away his usual reserve. Roku’s shins held down Arad’s forearms leaving him no way to defend himself if Roku lost complete control.


Roku’s eyes shimmered in the poor light, wet and glossy. “I know I imprinted on you! I know I can’t walk away from you! I knew it from the first day we met! I may be a monster, but there’s enough man in me to hold back. I never took from you what I wanted, what I really wanted. I never forced you into anything because I thought I might hurt you. I caged my animal instincts and you still treated me like a decent human being. You treated me like I mattered. You took care of me. You cared for me. Made the best of this horrible situation, and now it’s so much more than imprinting.

“And you wanted it too. I saw how you looked at me and I could smell your arousal every day, but I said nothing because I knew I didn’t have it in me to say no once I’d tasted you again. So I didn’t. You say I changed and now you’re addicted. That sex with me addicted you.”

Arad nodded, unwilling to say it again.

“You said you used to deal Syn. Does it absorb through skin?”

A spark of confusion loosened Arad’s lips. “N…no.”

“Why would this be any different? Sex diseases don’t transmit through the skin, do they? If not, then you were never exposed to anything addictive until the night I sleepwalked and wound up in your bed. And I didn’t imprint until after our first time together. The day I woke up. I felt it when it happened. I just didn’t know what it was then. So the changes in my body wouldn’t have happened before the first time. You wanted me and cared about me before anything serious happened between us. This addiction… that happened after. Did you ever feel like that for anyone else before? For Torrins?”

“No, I didn’t.”

“Then you have to know that this thing between us is real, more than biological programming and sex addiction.”

“Roku… even now. Trapped like this. I’m scared and I crave you even now.” 

Arad wanted more than anything to believe everything Roku said, make it real. But underneath the worries and fear, he still felt that craving, that need. The one he’d noticed weeks ago. The one Roku sated time and again on the Ansariland. It had been running under his skin since Hodge dumped Roku in the cell with him. It ran with him now, making him want inappropriate things, feeding him a dose of shame with every perverse thought he stuffed down.

“I don’t care. As wrong as this moment is, I would let you have me if you asked. Because you asked me. Because I would do anything for you. I will always take care of your needs.” Roku turned his head away and whispered. “This craving… is it only for me?”


He turned back, brow furrowed. “Do you feel it towards anyone else on this crappy ship?”

“No. Never.”

Roku leaned forward and caressed Arad’s head with his own. It was the most glorious sensation ever. “Then I don’t care how it happened. There’s more here than lust between us, isn’t there? You’ve spent so long surrounded by people who’ve used you for one reason or another, you can’t see when you’ve found the real thing. Admit it.”

Tears flowing freely, Arad’s mouth opened and closed, the word fighting to be thrust into the world. “Yes.”

“Tell me what you want. If I never touched you again, would you still want me? Because if you ask me, I will. I love you enough to make that sacrifice.”

“You do?”

Pulling back Roku stared into Arad’s eyes. “Yes.”

“But they want to erase me and sell you.”

“They can try. But until something changes, you are my mate, remember?” 

Roku shifted, releasing Arad’s arms, who then threw them around the tiger’s neck, squeezing tight.

“Yes. My mate. I forgot for a moment. I’m sorry.” Arad buried his face in Roku’s fur to hide the tears that continued to come.

“There’s nothing to forgive. As long as I have you, we will survive.”


“I will kick in each of their skulls if they try to harm you. Now come here.”

Roku stood and rolled into one of the beds, scooting backwards until his back and arms touched the wall.

“There’s not enough room in there for both of us.”

“Then we’ll have to get very close to one another.”

Arad hesitated as the craving spiked. “But what about…”

“No sex. I want to feel you against me, so I know you’re all right. I need to smell you, hear your heartbeat. Your anxiety leaves a sharp acid taste in my throat.”

With a nod, Arad climbed in. “You can tell how I’m feeling?”

“I always know how you’re feeling. Now rest while I keep watch. No one will come near you. I won’t allow it.”

The space was tight, but the familiar warmth of Roku’s body helped chase the craziness away, or at least put it under his heel for now. Their troubles were far from over, but he needed to forget them, even if for a few hours. Their limited chances for survival demanded it.


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#freereads – Adrift Ch 70 by J Alan Veerkamp #scifi #mmromance #freereads #lgbtfiction

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Arad’s a prisoner on board the Nightingale. What can he do?

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Chapter 70

Avoiding the authorities, dodging workhouse raids and shantyville sweeps, Arad had never seen the inside of a precinct cell. Occasionally, there were narrow escapes, but he’d somehow managed stay a free man. Others hadn’t been so fortunate. He used to worry about Sketch’s fate. Now all he could think about was Roku. A fine layer of dust coated the Nightingale’s jail from apparent disuse. Other than that, it was as well maintained as the rest of the ship.

It didn’t improve the experience.

A small viewing window was perched in the massive door, yet he’d given up seeing anything on the other side hours ago. It didn’t matter. He knew what his short future held. Four beds lined the walls with a commode mounted in the far corner. 

A shadow passed over the window moments before the door slid open. Vosh dragged Roku’s limp body inside, dumping him on the floor. Roku didn’t make a sound, even with the manacles holding his arms behind him. Arad schooled his worry. They needed Roku to get paid. 

Hodge entered with Yosei silently following. He ordered his crew members out and they shut the door leaving him inside.

“He’s a little doped. Bryce needed him compliant while she made sure there wasn’t any lasting damage from the collar.”

Arad crawled over to Roku and placed his sleeping head in his lap. The fur around the shock collar was shorter than the rest and blackened into fine clumps. “Oh well, how humanitarian of you. I’ll be sure to sign you up for an award. That’s sarcasm, since we both know I’m not making it out of here.”

Hodge grunted. “Your time on the street’s made you paranoid. We’ll drop you off at a distant station after the transaction’s complete.”

“Don’t placate me. I know I’m alive until I’m not useful anymore. Somewhere around the point where Roku needs to be presented to his new owner. I’m surprised you didn’t just off me and keep Roku drugged until you get there.” Arad petted Roku’s forehead, praying his touch might hold back any nightmares. 

“It was suggested. I said no.”

“Gee, thanks. I’m in your debt. Tell Vosh he’s a dick.” 

Shifting in a sideways arc, Hodge sat on the corner of the bed closest to the door. “It’s been said. I thought the least I could do is get you both some last time together.”

“Before you sell my ship and traffic Roku. So much for transporting medical tech.”

“It’s a side business.”

Arad snorted without mirth. “That some side hustle, selling men into slavery.”

“He’s not a man anymore.”

“Nope, he’s better than that. And even then, it’s not his fault. He was military, like you and all your crew at one point. I always thought you guys had a fraternity code. You know, spanking initiations and leave no man behind kind of things. Every soldier I ever met had an unshakable, if not overblown, morality about him and the military as a whole. What happened?”

Hodge leaned back and sighed. “The universe got complicated.”

“It gets complicated for everyone. Try being homeless for over a decade.”

“I bet you’ve done a shady thing or two in your time.”

“True. Survival can be a messy game. Even then, I never chose to let someone die to save myself. But I was never in the military, so what do I know? Acceptable losses and all that nonsense.”

A twinge of guilt lit up Arad’s insides. Saving the DemiShou had been a great motivator to move forward, to do something with his shattered life. He’d already been planning the next steps once the ship could travel under its own power again. Now his goal would be piled up with all his life’s losses. Others he’d accepted over the years as part of being a slug. This one, failing to finding a safe space for Roku and the others…

It gutted him worse than watching his family disown him before his own eyes.

“I like you, kid. I wish there was another way.”

Arad huffed. “There never is when someone’s looking to get filthy rich. I can see your dilemma.”

“It goes deeper than money.”

“That’s the price for getting in with corporation schemes. But don’t worry, I’m happy to pay the bill for you.” Arad gave hodge an unimpressed stare. “That was sarcasm too.”

Needling Hodge may not have been the smartest move, but Arad didn’t see a downside by venting his frustration. The situation seemed hopeless. His days were counting down while the tiger under his hands was going to lose his life in a totally different way.

Arad refused to shed a tear in front of Hodge. “I know your employer only sees him—and the rest of them—as a product to manufacture and sell, but he’s so much more.”

“He only likes you because he fucked you.” Hodge’s snark was uncharacteristic. Getting under the man’s skin felt satisfying.

“Maybe. You said you like me and you’re definitely screwing me too. Which one is better? At least he didn’t have a choice. Not at first.”

Hodge stood with a sudden jerk, discomfort staining his stance. “This has been a lovely chat, but there’s plenty to do over the next few days.”

“I bet.”

Hodge turned with a casual salute and headed for the door. He pounded the door twice with his fist and it opened. Yosei obediently stood in the doorway, hand on the lock control. She looked into the cell and a new wave of disdain filled Arad’s wounded heart. Hodge’s perfect surrogate child.

Twisting the knife sounded like a great idea. “Would your dead wife and daughter be proud of you if they could see you now?”

Hodge paused. Yosei’s eyes widened a fraction, her otherwise blank gaze tracking to Hodge as his hands fisted and his posture sharpened into jagged edges.

“Get comfortable. You might be here for a while.”

The lights dimmed as the door slid closed.


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#freereads – Adrift Ch 69 by J Alan Veerkamp #scifi #mmromance #freereads #lgbtfiction

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Roku’s in trouble…

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Chapter 69

Arad’s rapid footfalls drowned out his panicked heartbeat as he sprinted, reversing his route. He wasn’t sure what he could in a situation Roku couldn’t handle, but there was no way he would let him face this nonsense alone. The rage in Roku’s roar had triggered something inside. There were problems and issues to contend with between them. However, that would be later. Now, he needed to help his mate.


Bryce’s annoyingly soothing voice kept pace with him through the corridors. “You’re too late, Arad. You can’t help him.”

“Shut up, voyeur bitch!”

She huffed in feigned aggrievance. “That was rude.”

Arad ignored her, knowing a distraction when he heard it. Slugs in Grey District understood the technique. Lived it even. Babble talk at the shop owner so they don’t see someone else lift the food packets off the shelf. Not a glamorous skill, but a necessary one to prevent starvation at times.

Feet flying, Arad had nearly reached the workshop door, when it slid open. Roku and Vosh burst out in a tangle of snarling fury, punching and grappling with no hesitation. Arad screeched to a halt, keeping a safe distance. This was no friendly sparring. Both DemiShou were out for blood. What happened?

Yosei slipped out and backed further down the hall, making sure to stay well out of the melee. Watching closely, her expression gave away nothing on who she was rooting for. Almost as if she expected this fight to happen.

Rows if red lines appeared over Vosh from Roku’s claws, fine droplets on blood spattering them both and the walls. It didn’t slow Vosh. In fact, he seemed to be gaining ground which made no sense. Roku had clearly dominated the bear during their match. Arad had watched, there was no way Vosh threw the fight. Roku appeared to be off, his reactions sluggish compared to his norm. Had they done something to him?

With his full weight, Vosh slammed Roku into the wall, winding him. He snatched a sleek, metal loop hanging from his belt and clamped it around Roku’s neck. He leaped backwards out of reach, stuffing a hand in his pocket and drawing a small item. He pressed the surface, aiming it at Roku.

Sparks flared, the scent of singed fur drifting to Arad’s nose. Roku howled, scratching at the collar in agony, thrashing as he dropped to the floor. He continued to spasm, gripping the metal ring. It should have bent to his superior strength, but the restraint appeared to be designed for DemiShou. They were prepared to contain a Demi. Not surprising, since they were trafficking them in the first place. How could Vosh do this to one of his kind?

Arad had no intention to waste time asking. Eyes on Vosh, he dove at the bear, targeting the remote in his hand.

As he passed the workshop doorway, Pakko jumped out and tackled him hard. Outweighed by several pounds, Arad took the painful brunt of them hitting the deck. Pakko wrapped an arm around Arad’s head, muffling his mouth as he wrestled him down.

“Stand down, Roku, or we’ll be forced to hurt him.”

Roku stopped resisting, but watched over Arad’s shoulder at Pakko with a murderous gleam. Breathing rough and bleeding, Vosh stayed back out of reach. Yosei’s gaze flitted over each combatant, the Nightingale tech unusually silent.

No. Arad may not have been able to fight free from the thick arms lashed around him—he tried as hard as he could— but he wasn’t giving up. No. Not like this. Panic flooded his brain, feeding his desperation. Arad bit down and drew blood. Pakko screamed and released his head enough for Arad to speak.


“Roku! Get up and beat his ass!”

Roku’s deafening roar startled everyone present. Coiled muscled sprang, and he leaped, claws extended, at Pakko.

He didn’t make it. The collar flared, making Roku twist and land alongside them. His eyes rolled back as he fought the device’s hold, this time strong enough that Roku couldn’t resist. Tiny wisps of acrid smoke spun out from under the metal, even as Roku seized on the floor, almost close enough to touch.

Tears filled Arad’s eyes as he shrieked. “Roku! Stop it! You’re killing him!”

Jaw set tight, Vosh stood with his thumb pressed firmly on the remote, still aimed at Roku. Disdain radiated from him in a palpable wave.

“Stop it!”

Bryce’s voice came over the speakers. “Vosh, that’s enough. We don’t want to risk damaging the merchandise.”

He wasn’t listening. The collar continued its assault, and Roku jerked and convulsed. Clearly unconscious, his body was defenseless to the constant shock level.

Hodge finally appeared, stepping over them to stand in front of Vosh. “Vosh, stand down! That’s an order!” His voice rose to the cadence of a military professional. “If you don’t comply, I will airlock your sorry ass faster than you can say court martial. I will not say it again. Stand down!”

Vosh’s gaze spun to Hodge, the command finally breaking through his focus. With a frustrated snort, he flicked his thumb and the collar went quiet. So did Roku.

The world froze until Arad was sure Roku was breathing. Shallow, but breathing.

“Please. Don’t hurt him.” Whispering, all the fight fled Arad, and he slumped in Pakko’s hold.

He didn’t resist as Hodge ordered Vosh around, and the big bear pulled more out of the workshop and secured Roku’s arms behind him with a set of what must have been DemiShou-grade manacles. Bryce ordered him to come to medical so she could tend his wounds.

Hodge kneeled in front of Arad. “You play nice, you just might get out of this in one piece. Pakko, take him to the brig.”

Arad made no effort against them as Pakko pulled him to his feet. Hodge escorted them as they dragged Arad down the hall. His legs refused to make him move.

Yosei continued to watch. Saying nothing. Doing nothing.


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